Kristine/Student- Plainview, NY
” All the Flaws That I See Are Merely Because I Exist “
At a tutoring center that I worked at, I stumbled upon this meditation pamphlet. I flipped through thinking that this was just another meditation center. The name was so simple. I really thought nothing of it.
At that time, I was extremely religious and my spiritual life was revolving solely around the Buddhist temple I had attended since I was five years old. I arrogantly thought to myself that this was just another hoax that I wouldn’t even think about wasting my time on.
However, at that time my mom had noticed a change in my behavior as I was having a difficult time coping with everyday life. As I recall, in high school, I had lost my ambition and thought life was worthless.
During my meditation, I realized that all I cared about was outer appearances, status, and the material world; and because I could not have it, I was unsatisfied and imprisoned in my own delusional world with restrictions, emptiness, ungratefulness, and ultimately the hell, which was my mind.
My mom had dragged me to this meditation center, and during the first few sessions, I was selfishly, stubborn and covertly rejected the practice altogether, without even giving it a proper try. However, as I slowly let myself go and the split second I accepted it, I followed the steps and found a light within me. After passing the first and second level, I felt a huge burden lift off of my shoulders. No matter how I tried to restrict myself, nothing ever worked like this had for me.
This meditation has a proven process and a way for humans to achieve what they have been striving for- whether it be Heaven, God, Buddha, Nirvana, etc. Therefore, I am very grateful to have even ever met this practice. After experiencing what Truth is, I felt infinite, grateful, everlasting, and complete. And because of this “I”, I would experience stressful emotions and feelings, and I thought this “I” was my body, and my everything. I was really living stuck in my own illusionary world. When in fact, in the Truth there is no “I”, there is no mind or body of mine, and the picture world is non-existing.
Through this practice, I have learned to be truly thankful, accepting, and realized that all the flaws that I see are merely because “I” exist. Discarding my mind world and letting go of my false-self would equal freedom in this living, true, and infinite universe. How simple is that?
Source: http://meditationusa.org
